When deciding if to continue with something, it is usually because the good outweighs the bad. I still am happier than I have ever been, but to every job, there are aspects you don’t enjoy. In fact to nearly everything in life there are positives as well as negatives.
Me! When I used to go to work, I had a routine not unlike many others I’m sure. I got up, brushed my teeth, put on my work clothes and then put my ‘war-paint’ or ‘face’ on. I’ve never worn a lot of makeup, but I got into the habit of having it on for work every day, to the point I wasn’t comfortable without it in public at all! Now I HATE it when I have to put makeup on! But when I glance at myself in the mirror, it’s really not a very pretty picture peering back at me, especially as I’ve not seen the sun in about 6 months. I guess if I cared enough though I would put it on daily…
I get tunnel vision. Yes, I blog and write because it’s what I love doing. And I write what I write because I want to keep ensuring people don’t feel alone in their struggles with various distressing emotions. But as I posted early on today, you can start to become little too hung up on the stats. It’s ugly because it’s not why anyone writes. But at the same time, when you have poured your heart and soul on to a screen, and then publish it to the whole World, you can’t help but want some kind of feedback or acknowledgement that’s it’s been read.
Sometimes I am in real danger of letting the stats determine my mood. Good figures good day and so on. I think I largely have a grip on that now. I believe the problem was spending the majority of my time on the blog instead of my other, none ‘instant feedback’ methods of working. I loved blogging so much, I wasn’t writing my book or studying my course. Which leads me on to my next point…
I haven’t stuck to my plan. I had a very clear routine written up when I first started on this journey to becoming self-employed. I would blog two days a week, study for two others, and write my novel for another two, with one day off. How naive was I! Granted I have written a few thousand words on the book, but I have become so engrossed in my blogging (it’s so addictive!), the other two have fallen by the wayside. In fact, I hate studying so much I have only so far managed to do it for one day. One day!
New plan: Blog half of every day, write and study the other half. This I feel will help cure my tunnel vision as I start to realise the importance of my long-term goals, not short-term stats.
There are many other ugly sides to blogging, and being on-line in general! Some I have yet to experience such as trolling, but I am sure these will find me at some point!
Are there any other ugly sides to blogging/writing that you have experienced?