My greatest fear is that I am not good enough and that I will be sitting here in July without having achieved anything. It’s not rational, I know.
Why July? Well in July various things happen:
- I get married
- I go travelling for 3 months
- It will have been 6 months since I lost a paying job
When I began this journey into seeing if I could be the master of my own destiny, to design my life the way I wanted, I had in mind a 6 months time frame due to the reasons listed above. As July draws closer, my confidence is dwindling more and more. I feel more lost than when I started as I feel the pressure of the situation has clouded everything.
I took some time out this weekend with my sister and did my best to switch off from my biggest obstacle – my emotions. I’m still unsure of how to move forward, but the fog is starting to clear as I emerge from the deception of my anxious mind.
I hope you all had a good weekend and that this week starts off well for you.