You may have noticed I’ve been very MIA this weekend. Well, I’ve been ill. Again. I have spent nearly the whole of May being ill. Not sure if that’s just a bad coincidence or if it has to do with the sheer amount of stress and anxiety I’ve been experiencing over the past few months, but I fear it’s another ‘body taking over so I’m forced to chill’ thing. I’m not sleeping because every time I drift off I have a coughing fit. I had a whole weekend of stuff planned and couldn’t do any of it and now my anxiety over things I need to do has spiked.
The way it feels when I’m overwhelmed is like there’s so much in my head that is worrying me or needs to be done and it feels too much. I start ruminating and stressing – essentially I’m afraid I’ll forget something or run out of time or both.
So I’m taking the emotion out of the action and will be spending my day planning, making lists: putting my thoughts on to paper thereby removing them from my mind and hopefully alleviating the anxiety.
Who doesn’t love a good plan of action!
I’m such a geek.