I have a terrible habit of feeling overwhelmed.
I would go as far as saying I struggle with these feelings on a daily basis, although very mildly in comparison to the effect it used to have on me. When I look at experts within my field, those I look up to, I can’t help that inner panic rise like bile, as I wonder ‘How on Earth can I achieve even a fraction of what they have? It’s too hard! I’m not good enough!’ I deal with these intrusive thoughts through many different ways including meditation and my writing. I can also hand on heart say that if it wasn’t for the encouragement from those around me, if it wasn’t for the sheer blind belief and faith that people have in me, I may well not be here telling my story.
So I was going to write a post today about feeling over-sensitive and feeling a bit anxious. Then I did some meditation and realised that by writing about these feelings, I’m giving them power. So instead I am going to write about how you can start to conquer these intrusive or obsessive thoughts.
Intrusive thoughts feel like being sucked into a black-hole of despair and getting out of it can seem impossible. Going round and round with fears and anxieties, to the point you feel something has to give, be it an outburst of anger, physical release or an implosion, can have devastating effects. It’s how I ended up self-harming.
Sometimes it is too easy to allow other’s to take away our inner peace. We give them the power to affect how we feel. Through various tools, including meditation, I have and still am learning about how to rise above the pettiness that can penetrate our everyday lives. To realise the bigger picture and to take back the control of our emotions.