100 Happy Days – Day 8

Happy day 8. It’s been a long day and evening so my happy day pic is an early night in bed with Netflix. Sleep tight everyone! 

  

Please Note – I Have Moved!

The time has come my lovelies, I have finally got my own domain name and moved my site! Sadly this means you won’t get any update email if you are following me through wordpress 😦 If you would like to continue to receive email notifications, please visit my new site and subscribe!

See you on the other side!

Dani xx

Please Note – I Have Moved!

The time has come my lovelies, I have finally got my own domain name and moved my site! Sadly this means you won’t get any update email if you are following me through wordpress 😦 If you would like to continue to receive email notifications, please visit my new site and subscribe!

See you on the other side!

Dani xx

I Surrendered!

Sometimes you just need to hold your hands up and say ‘I surrender’ and have a day of looking after yourself. Today I went to a spa with my sister and then had some afternoon tea. It was exactly what I needed and I feel recharged after nearly a whole month of being ill.

Make sure you give yourselves a break sometimes my lovelies. It’s important to have time to repair and heal 🙂

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Wasted Weekend Being Poorly :(

You may have noticed I’ve been very MIA this weekend. Well, I’ve been ill. Again. I have spent nearly the whole of May being ill. Not sure if that’s just a bad coincidence or if it has to do with the sheer amount of stress and anxiety I’ve been experiencing over the past few months, but I fear it’s another ‘body taking over so I’m forced to chill’ thing. I’m not sleeping because every time I drift off I have a coughing fit. I had a whole weekend of stuff planned and couldn’t do any of it and now my anxiety over things I need to do has spiked.

The way it feels when I’m overwhelmed is like there’s so much in my head that is worrying me or needs to be done and it feels too much. I start ruminating and stressing – essentially I’m afraid I’ll forget something or run out of time or both. 

So I’m taking the emotion out of the action and will be spending my day planning, making lists: putting my thoughts on to paper thereby removing them from my mind and hopefully alleviating the anxiety.

Who doesn’t love a good plan of action!

I’m such a geek. 

The 3 Minute Memoirs – Anxiety And Nightmares

Anxiety is so hard to explain. It isn’t rational or logical – otherwise the luckiest people in the world (of who I feel I am one 😀 ) wouldn’t suffer from mental illness.

It doesn’t define me; I have anxiety but there are many other facets to my personality that aren’t affected by it. I’m a positive and happy person and love my life! I wish I could turn off the part of my brain that has such fear of things going wrong.

Some days are better than others. Sometimes you master it, sometimes it feels like it masters you.

New Mile Stone And A Massive Thank You!!

Firstly, and most pressingly, this awesome little blogger wrote the most wonderful and beautiful little post about me. Such amazing kindness ‘just because’ has made me (almost) speechless so a massive thank you to you miusho for doing something that’s really made a difference to me today 🙂

Secondly, and most definitely due to the first point, I have reached a new milestone!

The blogging world is such an amazing supportive community, something I never really imagined when I started back in February and I would like to take this opportunity to tell all of you how incredibly honoured I am to be walking on this Unmarked Road with you.

Thank you for never letting me walk it alone.

Dani xx

THE THIRTIES vs THE TWENTIES

LOVE this post so much! Am turning 30 in July and agree with everything you have said here! xx

Follow your Bliss

I turned 30 this year and promised myself that this will be the year for THRIVING.. So whilst doing past life regression meditations recently I had these profound memories of whom I was during my 20’s.  I would like to share with you a few things that I was fortunate enough to experience and learn during these years..

1. Be your own AWESOME self!  I learned that there was no one exactly like me, I had my own mind of reality, and my own dreams, even my own unique sneeze. (And if you know me, you’ll know my sneeze is ridiculously funny) Yes its awesome to have mentors and people who we admire, but embrace your own uniqueness that’s what makes you special.

2. Everything CHANGES nothing is PERMANENT embrace it!  Traveling fRom a young age really helped me to embrace change; The only permanent thing is death.  When you…

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When The Mind Doesn’t Listen, And The Body Takes Over

Hello everyone!!! I am back (and hopefully with a bang!)

For those of you who don’t know. I’ve spent the past few weeks in Germany with my family. My godmother is currently surviving colon cancer and staying with her is always extra special. As a German I am considered short at 1 meter 62 (both my sisters are 6 feet tall!) and I always get treated as the baby; which I absolutely LOVE because I can just relax and be a little bit spoiled for a few days.

However. Even though I needed the time off, I had every intention of doing some work on the sly while I was away. Not touching the blog just made me too anxious. As my godmother doesn’t have wi-fi, I knew it would be difficult. But I didn’t realise quite how hard it would be! The first few days felt like I was withdrawing from a drug! I realised how much I had become addicted to checking my stats, with keeping in touch with my readers. Just everything internet. It was horrible to realise this, even more so when I visited my older sister and nephews and the first thing I wanted to do was get online, to check in and ensure people weren’t forgetting about me. I rescheduled a couple of old posts which did well, and being in Germany and talking about my father inspired the article about his death.

But apparently I needed a break more than I realised. Needless to say, my body took over and for almost the entire time I was in Germany, I was ill. It started with tonsillitis and then the infection spread to my chest. I spent every night having a coughing fit the minute I managed to drift off to sleep, and so during the day I was too tired to do anything but chill out with my family.

I have concluded then that my body decided enough really was enough. That I needed proper time out, a proper break from the site, from the wedding planning – from my own head even.

I had been feeling disconnected and feeling a need to recover emotionally (which I thought I had somewhat). But I didn’t realise quite how far I’d slipped. How much I’d been living on a constant level of stress and anxiety.

My body physically stopped me being able to do anything mentally. And it was exactly what I needed.

I feel completely new. Like a snake shedding its old skin, I have risen from the ashes and am revelling in feeling ‘like me’ again. The trick now is to not allow anyone or anything from disturbing this new inner peace I have rediscovered.

With 5 1/2 weeks to go before the wedding, moving out and travelling it’ll be a challenge! But I feel finally strong enough to deal with it head on; I just hope everyone in my life right now will make things as easy as possible for me!