“One grain of rice can tip the scale.”
Here’s a little update on how I am finding life being self-employed…
I already feel successful because I am doing what I set out to do. To help people. It might not seem like a lot but I feel I’ve made more difference in these short 4 months, than in my entire career previously. Thank you for fighting this fight with me. xx
WARNING: THIS VIDEO TALKS ABOUT SELF HARM AND SUICIDE AND MAY BE A TRIGGER
An ambiguous statement, but true. I’ve survived suicide attempts (both my own and that of family members), self-harm, domestic abuse of a parent, depression, anxiety, bulimia and more.
I remember feeling so alone and like a freak for being different to everybody else. I founded The Unmarked Road to share my story, in hope it gives comfort to those going through hard times and struggling with their thoughts and emotions.
Your past does not have to define your future.
No matter how dark things appear, there is always a light. I know this because I have come out the other side of some of the deepest depth of despair imaginable.
Through sharing our experiences, we can end the stigma of mental health together. I welcome all of you to share your stories with me.
“Just because you feel it, doesn’t mean you have to act on it and it doesn’t mean it’s reality”
Sometimes feelings of “I’m not good enough”, can overwhelm me. Like today 😦 It’s good to talk feelings out. To not give them ultimate power over you. But it’s also ok to have a down day. I won’t feel guilty for it and hope that this diary entry today will show that there’s no shame in feeling inadequate. Because at some point we all feel that way.
Well it was about time for another video diary! Like writing, I can’t force them so I’m sorry it’s taken such a long time for me to post another.
Last week was so stressful that I felt myself shutting down. My body and mind does this to protect itself and until I am able to process what is happening in my own time, if I am pushed and forced out of that ‘quiet’ state for example, I get angry.
In this video I talk about what has caused this anger, such as my need to people please, and also how I deal with it so it doesn’t control me or do any damage to myself in the way it used to.
Thank you for watching 🙂
WARNING: This video goes into detail about self-harm and attempted suicide. While it is not a negative video, it may make some people uncomfortable so please watch at your own risk.
This was a difficult one to record. I fought hard again the impulse to press the stop button at any time! I have previously spoken about my issues with self-harm, but in this video I talk about the darkest time in my life. Please be respectful and please let me know your thoughts 🙂
A few weeks ago I went to a free seminar about Neuro-Linguistic Programming. I really enjoyed it and came away rejuvenated! However the day before and on the actual day was another story…
To go with my blog I decided to also record a video diary, literally starting the day I lost my job. In all honesty it is awful!! I almost threw in the towel on the whole thing, but I didn’t want to do it again as it was authentic and real, and I feel it is important for those who don’t know me personally, to really get a feel for who am I as a person. So here’s the video. I really am not exaggerating when I say it is probably one of the most awkward things you’ll ever watch! I promise I’ll get better!